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a note from the author June 30, 2006

Posted by jeanne in Author's Note, Characters, Creative Writing, Plotting, construction news, original fiction, reading club.
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i don’t really have anything to post today. i’ve been doing other things, and my eyes are sore and sticky. there’s dust and mosquitoes in the air for the first time in ages. before the record rain of june ‘06, atlanta had been having quite the hot spell, and i’ve had to surrepticiously water my plants because of the water restrictions, especially the new ones out the back, now that i’ve discovered i have actual half-day sun conditions there.

see, last year and the year before i never went down the back in the summer, and never went back there in the winter. the mosquitoes were horrible because of all the kudzu in the vacant lot, and the standing water of Lake Name along the alley, the north end of our properties.

but this year, i’ve spent a lot of time looking out my back windows and prowling around my back yard because of this construction thing going on behind me, and i just happened to notice that the area right up against the back of the house, facing north tho it does, gets several hours of dappled sun in the morning, and the eastern end gets from 9 to noon. we’re in georgia -  that’s worth a full day of new england sunshine. better yet, the northeast end of the yard, under my pecan trees way down the back, gets almost 6 hours a day.

visions of meadows of wildflowers, a stand of fruit trees, a bank of roses floated thru my head. a fishpond.

i sat and watched the sun’s pattern move across the back yard

i drew diagrams and flip charts

i used bricks, raked up gravel, dead leaves to outline the trees’ drip line, the topo line, the sun line thru time. i wanted to get out there with surveyor-orange spray paint, but estrained myself.

the reason i’m not working on the blog today is a good excuse. the noise and smell from the construction equipment has me really light headed and jumpy, and i got an email this morning asking about where somebody could see more of my artwork, and i thought about it for awhile, and then decided to go to all the trouble of resurrecting my old website, stored on a disk for years now. from way back when i had a day job. so that people could at least see my paintings.

but the free geocities website i have now wouldn’t let me upload my old site, so i had to go to all the trouble of recreating it. which i have now done, after a fashion. i need to get more pictures, for one thing, and it would be nice if they didn’t have to be so small. i kind of like looking over 25 years of work. i was quite fond of most of these paintings while i was doing them.

so, a bunch of them are now out there if you’d like to look at them. 

another reason i’m not working on this blog today is that i’m having all sorts of questions and issues with various issues.

like asking myself if it’s worth it. can i make an interesting story out of a bunch of crazy role models and inspirations? can i weave that many characters together and be coherent? i tend to ramble, and what i’m proposing requires the pacing of a comedian.

other questions, like how to actually structure it. the construction process itself is like a character, how do i weave it in? do i limit mention of the construction incidents to inset quotes at the beginning of each chapter? do i interrupt the text for news bulletins? or do i detail the intricacies of playing with building blocks in a sandbox?

it’s got to be boring, doing what they’re doing. there’s a guy out there right now going up and back, raking the dirt ramp smooth in his bulldozer. up and back. up. back. what is he thinking in there?

i’m having a hell of a lot of fun developing the characters. i’ve got three strong women, and they just fit right on in without any coaxing to a maiden, mom, crome trinity. cool as shit, the way this happens. you pick a character out of the blue, or one occurs to you. you think you’re making them up, but they end up being archetypes every time.

astrology really does work. so do tea leaves and palm reading and runes and the i-ching and the damned ouija board.

and the reason all these things work is because life is a metaphor. we only understand an approximation of what’s really going on, what’s really real, and we certainly don’t understand what god could be up to.

and since we can only try to understand, can only grasp a portion of it all, then what we can express is reduced to simple words and nursery-rhyme tunes. we cna only express the glory of god’s universe in approximations, in metaphors, in what it’s not.

anyway. what this has to do with character development. let me think about that for a moment. it’s all a bunch of nonsense is what i think at the moment. it’s 5 o’clock and i’m going to take pictures of the site, eat dinner, watch a movie with my honey, and go to bed.

jeanne

Construction Wednesday 5/31 June 29, 2006

Posted by jeanne in Urban Development, construction news.
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We’re having a meeting with all available residents and the foreman. They’re supposed to be going over what we can expect when. Meeting 4:00. us, couple next door’s wife, nice gay guy, hippie mom late, the star crossed girl. Each had their own concerns to press. Star crossed girl wanted to know what she was getting because she didn’t need grading. She also wanted them to reroute the trucks off of name street, but the site engineer already filed the route with the city. She was vehement. She thinks they’re going to block her access to her house and run her out of busness.

Gay guy wants grading, so does family next door. Hippie mom wants trees taken down, family next door wants stumps removed, we told them we wanted a pool. The drainage issue – there’s a pond, that can be solved by gravity drainage. We have trees, so we can’t build up too much. If they can’t change grade then they’ll put in cachment basins. There’s going to be a ramp starting in gay guy’s yard and going up, with a wall running arbout 2′ so there’ll be a ramp down to our property as a driveway. The corners of the property is going to remain the same, and the retention box will be 6′ deep. Still don’t know how many cubic yards.

Our property is 176′ by 52′. The plat shows that our chain link fence, as well as everyone else’s, lies to the left of the property line by some feet. That’s going to cause problems when everybody goes to put their fences back up.

The money will be paid after alley construction starts. They had originallly tied the alley to the critical path, but because everyone wants something else, they’ve detached it, and now it will be some time down the line. Developer’s having a meeeting with us next week to decide how we want our back yards done. People who want trees down in their yard have to get permits right away before the equipment is gone.

There’s a month left for the earth moving. Then they’ll drive piles (they called it something eco) voodoo gravel thing, for ten days (500 some), and then it’ll get quiet as it goes vertical.

It’s going to be leed certified

15 trucks in and out, the landfill about 20 minutes away.

There’s a big black plastic sheet out on the right side of the property, 40′ long at least. Dirt is piled up. it looks wet. For the last year or two black seepy stuff that smells bad used to come flowing out of the property and across the sidewalk. Had to keep the dog away from it.

Star crossed girl as mythic hero June 29, 2006

Posted by jeanne in Characters, Creative Writing, Plotting, construction news.
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Star crossed girl’s story arc as a mythic hero (see 45 master characters)

Act 1: Containment

1. The illusion of a perfect world

dropped out of school, living with the boyfriend, not working, having everything handed to her.

using coping strategies of naivete and cinderella, pleasing and validation from others

2. Betrayal or realization

home invastion, robbery, gun to her head. then the cops have the nerve to arrest them instead of going after the bad guys who beat and robbed them.

forced to choose between facing her fears or staying a passive victim. What is life all about?

Coping strategies fall apart. Tries to hide evidence and is caught, left without male protection, taken advantaged of as they set her up to take the fall.

3. Awakening, preparing for the journey

passive, blames others, acts victim, avoids situation by not talking about it

active, mom challenges her to go after what she wants, to use it positively

she goes back and forth between fighting optimism and depressive hopelessness and self blame.

Since mom takes the positive role, she’s free to take the negative role, and all mom’s exhortations go in one ear and out the other. determined to lay down and die. Mom only leaves her alone when her cancer comes back and she gets self centered.

Counselor tries to make her dependent on him, tells her she’s helpless

She expects an outside rescue, wastes time, risks failing drug test

Act 2: Transformation

4. Descent, passing gates of judgment

star crossed girl feels helpless to avoid guy’s pressure

something inside her won’t let her be victim to him, coping mechanisms put her in his power

Mom gets arrested by the informer

Girl feels helpless making mom’s bail. Inner turmoil

Transfers fear for herself to concern for her mom

Realizes she’s done this to herself, remorse and wasted time, misplaced goals

Longs for a way to get back at informer for hurting mom

Realizes what her mom means to her, accepts herself

Faces abuse and lies in relationship, beginning to write about herself, drawings

Realizes she’s not powerless against informer, devises good way to get back at him

Cuts her ties to boyfriend and realizes she was just being used

5. Eye of the storm

Plotting to get the informer and get charges against mom dropped

Offer to get record expunged, become a cop, turn in friends

Temptation is really a version of the pleasing coping mechanism

False sense of security, wants to go her own way

Mom tries to keep her the same, friends also

Relaxes and violates parole, thinking she’s safe

6. Death, all is lost

Mom dies

Fails drug test and is in the power of another case worker who wants her to join his gang

She’s confused and desperate, can’t see any hope

Act 3. Emergence

7. Support

Reaches out to the old couple

Learns shamanism and herbs and starts following mom’s old ambitions to be an artist. Gets her GED

Gets a job at the garden center and starts studying botany.

8. Rebirth, moment of truth

Trial, courage, brains, heart.

Different reaction to seeing boyfriend

5 years probation

Opposite of former coping strategies – naive, cinderella, nice. So, sophisticated, joan of arc, truthful

9 Full circle, return to perfect world

Boyfriend back, not attracted to him

Writing her story

Taking online college classes. Decides she wants to be a counsellor.